Category Archives: Awakening

Snow Days

I love snow days. My kids do too (of course). We were blessed with one just the other day. As with all of our snow days, it was a wonderful opportunity for us to just stop. A great time to ‘drop out of life’ for a day. We relaxed, played games and, of course, basked in the beauty of a foot of newly fallen snow. Even the need to shovel the driveway was a gift, the wind in my face, snowflakes wetting my cheeks and the birds chirping overhead. There was nowhere to go and no timetable to keep.

I did, despite the gift of a day off work and school, check my e-mail now then and, yes, I jumped on Facebook. In that, this past snow day brought another aspect to my awareness, one I hadn’t spent much time with. It caused me to take a step back and look at how life on this planet and within our society works. To look at how conditioned we’ve become within the societal boundaries. There were so many people concerned about missing work, getting kids to school (those that didn’t get the day off) and a myriad of other issues related to the weather. So many things that people were set on doing but couldn’t or things that would now be more difficult because mother nature had the “nerve” to bring on a snowstorm and interrupt their plans. In one way, it’s our society that keeps us in the chains of busy-ness. It has conditioned us to believe we must be busy. We must produce. We must get out there and make money. We must get our kids to school so they can learn. In another way, it’s ourselves that bind us in these chains, because we believe it and we ourselves keep so busy that we don’t know how to stop. We feel confined because of all of this perceived societal responsibility or perhaps our own personal fear of just stopping and being in silence (but that’s a whole other story in itself). Many people are even penalized if they miss a day of work, either by loss of pay or the threat of a “black mark” in their employee file. Just another link the chain.

During this past snow day it never occurred to me to be upset with it. It snowed. My kids were home from school, which meant I was too. Pretty simple. Work could wait (even though I’m one of the ones to get a “black mark” with this particular job). School to could wait. I was going to enjoy it. I was going to take the day to slow down and jump out of life for a while and it was wonderful. There was no conflict within me. I went with the flow and enjoyed every moment.

This is something that comes with awakening. Call it trust. Call it “going with the flow”. Call it what you will. It is the realization that this moment is all we have. Wherever we are is where we need to be. You can struggle with it, fight against it and be angry with it or you can accept what is and enjoy it. If there is a snow day and you can’t do the things you have planned then trust that. Get your notions and your expectations out of the way and enjoy.

The next time there is a snow day, it is a gift. Relax and enjoy. Trust that the universe is doing this for you, not to you, and you will not be disappointed.


In being awake you realize your connection with everything around you.  You realize that you ARE everything around you and everything around you is you.  It is all one.  There is nothing more simple.  There is nothing outside of you.  There is nothing separate.  There is just one and you are it. 

Once this is realized, all there is left to do…is play.

All One

Altered Reality

If you see things only through the filter of your mind you aren’t seeing clearly. You are seeing an altered reality. A reality you’ve only imagined.


Just actors

Waking up is getting off the stage. It’s like sitting in the audience knowing you are just watching a play but the actors in the play still believe it is real. Day to day life? 99% are still in the play.

In the Play

Right Here

The path to enlightenment is right here, right where you are.  No need to go anywhere.  No need to figure out where to go next.  Let go and you will be led.  That is grace.

Where Are You Going?

It’s been a while since I’ve written here.  The events of life pulled me away for a while.  That’s the way it goes.  The movement of things, like waves on an ocean, coming and going, ebb and flow.  Lately the desire to write has come back so here I sit, at my computer.

What’s been on my mind lately is something a Zen teacher once said during a talk he gave.  “When you look out into the world today how can you not get a little depressed once in a while.”  There are a few things happening here.  The first is, as those of you who have been through a deep enough awakening may already know, there is some depression that comes along with that for most people, even if for just a little while.  As things fall away the emptiness that is left can be difficult at first, especially if the ego is struggling to hold on tight.  The second, is the idea people have about what it means to be enlightened or awake.  So many have this preconceived notion that enlightenment means that the enlightened person walks around happy and blissful all of the time, which is incredibly untrue.  To be enlightened is to experience every emotion, every energy that arises, fully and without turning away from it.  This could be anger, happiness, sadness, depression etc.  Even Jesus threw around a table or two.  Even Buddha shed some tears.

Lately, the sadness has come up as I watch most people run around being exceptionally busy; rushing, rushing, rushing, running themselves ragged.  Where are they going and why?  Our culture, especially here in America, tells us we need to be productive.  We need to accomplish something.  We need to work hard.  We need to make lots of money.  On and on.  Why?  How many of you sit back and ask yourself what you are doing?  Where do you think you are going?  This mind-set is never-ending.  One thing gets done and it’s immediately off to the next.  Not only can this be toxic to your health and mind but how does this effect how you treat others?  A general observation is that the effect is nothing but harmful.  I look at my place of employment as an example.  People are penalized for calling in sick more than 3 times in 3 months: production valued over health, production valued over taking a day of rest, production valued over compassion for the things life can throw our way.  Then there are also individuals who get upset or even angry at someone for taking a day off unexpectedly.  Why?  I watch people work and work and work week after week, throwing that time away until they can get to their two-week vacation.  It’s insane.  What about our every day time?  We go and go and go so we can relax for two weeks?  And even then, many vacations are filled with just as much doing as life back at home.  It’s insane.  At least 10 – 20 times a week people tell me they can wait for the weekend.  Why wait?  What about now?  Again, where are you going?  What is there to get to?  The weekend will come, but it will also go.  What about all of the other moments?  They are just as precious.  The sadness comes up in me when I watch this but the sadness isn’t to be seen as something negative and I don’t expect or desire things to be any different from what they are.  But the desire is there to snap people out of it and show them there is more to life that they are not seeing in their busy-ness.

The other side of the sadness comes from watching people’s need to fill every moment with something to keep them busy.  I watch people, almost daily, who suffer tremendously when there are times of “nothing to do” or when they are alone and it’s quiet.  They do everything they can to fill what they perceive as a void.  What would happen if they didn’t turn away from it?  What would happen if you didn’t turn away from your own void?  If you didn’t run away from it?  Most people don’t know what would happen as most can’t face it or are not ready to face it.  The sadness here comes from knowing that this perceived void is where the truth is.  If you can stop covering it up with constant activity it will reveal itself to you.

Instead of following what your mind is telling you needs to get done, be quiet and listen to what is driving you from the inside.  You won’t be led astray and it’s not as scary as your mind will try to tell you it is.

Life is not about what is going to happen tomorrow, so where are you going?