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No Thought Needed

I’m currently in the process of selling my house.  We just had an offer on it this week, and it was a pretty good offer, given the state the housing market is in right now.  My realtor came over last night, very excited, with papers in hand.  We looked through them and she explained a couple of the sections that they had added to or altered.  She handed me a pen, expecting me to sign that second.  She was smiling.  I took the papers, gave her back her pen and said that I would call her in two days.  She didn’t get it.  She could not understand why I wasn’t jumping on this and selling the house that very instant.

When I first fell onto the enlightenment wagon there was a quote by Jed McKenna that I used to use as my mantra for a while.  It was, “Things come into a certain alignment, patterns emerge, rightness is perceived, and the clearly indicated course is followed.”.   In addition to that, he says something along the lines of, “if the answer isn’t indicated, then I don’t do anything”.   This was one of those times and even though I hadn’t considered this quote in a long time it instantly jumped into my awareness.  I needed to sit with this and wait for an indication of “rightness” or “wrongness”.  I needed to feel the current flow.  My realtor left, perplexed.

Today, by noon (even though I have another 24 hours before I have to give them an answer), I was getting text message after text message asking me what I was going to do.  Hurry, hurry, hurry, now, now, now, as if the universe would cave in on itself if the answer did not come in that very hour.   

I sat back in my chair, took a deep breath and … my answer was no.  We are not selling the house today.  Not because we don’t want to move, not because they were pressuring us for a decision, not because of any reason other than that is the answer that is indicated.  That’s it.  No thought needed.  Nothing cognitive necessary.  The indicated answer is simply just that, what is indicated.

The realtor I am using is, luckily, a friend of mine, so she tries very hard to understand, but 99% of the time, people just don’t.  After all, I have the perfect place lined up to live, winter is coming and I would no longer have to deal with my LONG driveway and the snow, the house we’d move into is in the perfect location, on a lake, just 10 minutes down the road, next door to my daughter’s best friend and closer to the kids schools.  Not to mention, after the end of this month it is no longer available to rent.  Every sign, if looked only on the surface or through thought, says we should sell…now. 

But the answer is no and who am I to question it?  I don’t know why it’s ‘no’ and maybe I never will, but I trust it.  This is one of the things that takes some getting used to in the whole awaking gig.  Trusting the universe over your meager little thoughts.  Surrendering.  It gets easier to do the more you do it but it can be a scary thing.  All I know, is that when I listen to that indication, eveything turns out more beautifully than I could have ever imagined. 

To quote Jed one more time, “I want what’s best and I trust the universe, not my little brain, to be the judge of what’s best and how best to make it happen.”.

No thought needed.

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Snow Days

I love snow days. My kids do too (of course). We were blessed with one just the other day. As with all of our snow days, it was a wonderful opportunity for us to just stop. A great time to ‘drop out of life’ for a day. We relaxed, played games and, of course, basked in the beauty of a foot of newly fallen snow. Even the need to shovel the driveway was a gift, the wind in my face, snowflakes wetting my cheeks and the birds chirping overhead. There was nowhere to go and no timetable to keep.

I did, despite the gift of a day off work and school, check my e-mail now then and, yes, I jumped on Facebook. In that, this past snow day brought another aspect to my awareness, one I hadn’t spent much time with. It caused me to take a step back and look at how life on this planet and within our society works. To look at how conditioned we’ve become within the societal boundaries. There were so many people concerned about missing work, getting kids to school (those that didn’t get the day off) and a myriad of other issues related to the weather. So many things that people were set on doing but couldn’t or things that would now be more difficult because mother nature had the “nerve” to bring on a snowstorm and interrupt their plans. In one way, it’s our society that keeps us in the chains of busy-ness. It has conditioned us to believe we must be busy. We must produce. We must get out there and make money. We must get our kids to school so they can learn. In another way, it’s ourselves that bind us in these chains, because we believe it and we ourselves keep so busy that we don’t know how to stop. We feel confined because of all of this perceived societal responsibility or perhaps our own personal fear of just stopping and being in silence (but that’s a whole other story in itself). Many people are even penalized if they miss a day of work, either by loss of pay or the threat of a “black mark” in their employee file. Just another link the chain.

During this past snow day it never occurred to me to be upset with it. It snowed. My kids were home from school, which meant I was too. Pretty simple. Work could wait (even though I’m one of the ones to get a “black mark” with this particular job). School to could wait. I was going to enjoy it. I was going to take the day to slow down and jump out of life for a while and it was wonderful. There was no conflict within me. I went with the flow and enjoyed every moment.

This is something that comes with awakening. Call it trust. Call it “going with the flow”. Call it what you will. It is the realization that this moment is all we have. Wherever we are is where we need to be. You can struggle with it, fight against it and be angry with it or you can accept what is and enjoy it. If there is a snow day and you can’t do the things you have planned then trust that. Get your notions and your expectations out of the way and enjoy.

The next time there is a snow day, it is a gift. Relax and enjoy. Trust that the universe is doing this for you, not to you, and you will not be disappointed.